Let me say something that you would not hear every day.
"Never compare your life as that of the TV programs.
You will fail miserably."
For the longest time, I kept on admiring how couples on my
favorite shows looked. They seemed happy and touchy touchy almost all the time.
I had moments where I dreamt how my wedding would be, how the babies will be
raised and even the car that we will drive.
Life gave me a big shock of my expectations versus the
reality. For one, the wedding I had always pictured on my head never came
through. I preferred to hold a small wedding with close family and friends. The
budget and distance between the friends I had changed. I preferred the people
who stood by me to be present alongside the family that I had gained.
The man I had pictured in my mind was tall, masculine and
wealthy. Yes, wealthy! Funny, right? I managed to get Fred who was tall, not
masculine and not wealthy but very happy with him. The romantic novels I had
read while I was young gave me an imagination same as the characters. We have
struggled together especially when he was jobless. Taking the role of the house
was not easy especially when I was pregnant.
With the babies, I have one whom I love so much! Getting
her was not easy as I had pictured. I went through a lot like miscarriages, bed
rest and painful labor in order to bring her to this world. She is perfect. I
thought I would go have sex, wait nine months then give one sexy push and the
baby would pop out like in the movies. Nah! I even questioned women who had
more than eight kids how they managed to handle it all.
As I am approaching my thirties, I have come to appreciate
the things that have made me whom I am. The pain, struggles, laughter, stress,
illness, mourning period, love and work gave me the strength to move
forward.
I have reached the big 3-0. I have accomplished a lot of
things. I am blessed. Just the other day I came from campus naïve as a chicken
to the corporate world and have risen to the HR Manager. My dream already in
just a few years. My best friend, Ann, is on her way up the ladder too. She was
recently promoted as the Chief Regional Officer. High five to us!
My love of my life, Fred. The father of my baby. The soul
mate. My husband. He is still charming as ever, patient, loving and at 32 years,
he is the best to have around. His career took a dive but he is on the way to
stability. I love you baby. May God bless us with more days to see our grandkids becoming presidents. LOL
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